Been feeling pretty down. Let’s not go into why. But if there is anything that cheers me up when I’m a mess of emotions (and I use “cheers me up” in the loosest of senses), it’s dwelling on the knowledge that I am not an accident. God made me on purpose. He desired for a Bonnie to be in this world.
This is super important to me because I often feel like there aren’t many who desire for a Bonnie to be in this world. Not that they DON’T want me, more that they are indifferent to the idea. “How do you feel about having a Bonnie in this world?” *shrugs* “Meh.”
So all day long I have been reminding myself that God DOES want me in this world. “How do you feel about having a Bonnie in this world?” *super happy anime face* “That would be AWESOME!” *”awesome” echoes throughout the known universe*
He made me on purpose and he made you on purpose too. Dwell in that.
This recording was made using Nick’s new gadget. Still working out the kinks, as in this is the first time we used it. But the recording sounds better than the ones I usually get with my phone. This is also not super polished because I did one take and said, “That’s good enough.” Also, there is a bit of dead space at the beginning. Just go with it.
Here’s my promised crappy recording of my new song. It’s definitely not finished. It needs arranging and polishing and a better piano player and singer. 😉
Anyway, this song was inspired by the idea that we can’t control what people say about us and sometimes our names will get trashed in the court of public opinion. You don’t always have to try to fix their mistaken ideas about you. Haterz gon’ hate, baby. Sometimes you just have to breathe and let them.
11 “Blessed are you when people revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. 12 Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
Think about Jesus standing before Pilate. Pilate couldn’t figure out why Jesus wasn’t defending Himself. Read these scriptures, boo:
10 Pilate therefore said to him, “Do you refuse to speak to me? Do you not know that I have power to release you, and power to crucify you?” 11 Jesus answered him, “You would have no power over me unless it had been given you from above; therefore the one who handed me over to you is guilty of a greater sin.”
Pilate’s all, “What’s wrong wit you, brah?!? Don’t you know I can kill you?” And Jesus is all, “Nah, bro. Y’all ain’t got nothing on me.”
(I’m not a very cool person so I hope you enjoy my butchered slang.)
Anyhoo, this is something I need to remember and I remember things better when I sing them. Like the ABC’s and the fact that busses have wheels that go ’round and ’round.
So without further ado, here’s the not very good version of the song I recently whipped up that Nick informs me is “not a piano song”. 🙂
Here’s a little tune I’ve been working on. I don’t know if I’m done with it yet. Maybe I’ll add a bridge or something. I definitely don’t have an ending yet. If you even sorta like it, share it on Facebook because I’m taking an FB hiatus. I still have my account, I’m just not getting on there.