I swear, never in a thousand years, will you be able to guess who/what this song is really about. And, to be honest, I don’t really care if anyone knows. But not knowing makes the song better. Trust me.

I don’t know why I listen to you
All you tell me is lies
Fame and fortune one day
The next it’s all stormy skies
I trusted you with my heart
I keep asking for advice
I know I need to quit you baby

But I just can’t walk away from you
I haven’t even tried
How can I walk away
When you’re the only one
Who’s always right by my side
Through every heartbreak
And all the dark nights
You always know just what to say
To ease the pain
So I know it’ll be alright

I don’t know what’s next for us
All I have left is dreams
You’re always trying to tell me baby
Nothing’s as bad as it seems
I want to believe you
I hold this hope deep inside
Let’s go around again baby

We’ve been together
Such a long time
Too long to say
I hope I never
Have to live this life
Without your face
Cuz I just can’t walk away

Ok. I will be the first to admit this song is really depressing. Lol. But I am only mildly depressed. I reconciled within myself a long time ago that I wasn’t on people’s radar. But that’s just the nature of everyone being their own main character. I just had a hard day and couldn’t think of anyone who would really be concerned about it with me. I tried. I reached out to a few people but then just gave up. It’s Tuesday. Lol. And my hard day wasn’t even really about me. But I felt shitty when I left work and just wanted someone to talk to and there was no one. Some of that is on me. I have become a lot more closed off than I used to be. Anyway, my little emo attitude is temporary. I bounce back harder than a dick on blue pills. Yes, feeling emo at the moment. But gimme a few and I’ll feel like the queen I am again.

Little goblins are running through my head
They want me dead they want me dead
To erase the very thought of me
So they can be free they can be free

They whisper nothing really matters
And no one cares at all
And no one wants to hear you sing another stupid song
And no one is listening to anything you say
Quiet little one while we steal your life away

Everything is rotten to the core
And I don’t want to cry anymore

Little goblins are running through my head
They’ve all be fed they’ve all been fed
Still they hunger for what I cannot give
I want to live I want to live

They whisper nothing really matters
And no one knows you’re here
And no one would even notice if you suddenly disappeared
And all the ones you have loved have moved on with their lives
And no one would even notice if you died

Everything is rotten to the core
And I don’t want to cry anymore

Maybe if I’d been a better whore
Said yes and please and thank you I’ll take more
And I can always give until I’m poor

I don’t want to cry anymore

I have been a writing machine lately. Boop.

I told it to the bees
I told it to the trees
All about the ways
You make me feel inside
(Wanna run and hide)

How you make me scream
Pulled apart at the seams
Broken and in pain
Happy but insane
(Who am I to complain)

There is water running down these walls
Flooding every corner of these halls
There are flowers growing on these graves
And on the off chance you love me I’ll stay

But I don’t wanna stay
I just wanna hear you say
Every secret you never told me
That you always thought I knew
And I don’t wanna go
I just want you to know
There is so much I never told you
And now I never will
I don’t wanna stay but I don’t wanna go

Not a new song. A really old one. I just like it. I haven’t played it in a long time and to be honest I didn’t really practice much before I recorded her. So there.

You took a long time getting here
But now you’re here with me
Now I see you were always with me
I was numb thinking you were gone

I packed you up in an old shoebox
Thought I had to bury you
I believed I could not survive
Not be safe not be whole

But I was wrong to leave you behind
To pack you away
To break up my heart into pieces like the day
To break up the sky
The sun moon and stars
You can’t live without the night
You can’t live without your scars
Without your scars

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