It’s crumbling
That old farmhouse
The one where I thought I’d die
Awning – sagging
Windows – broken
Plumbing – leaking
I keep propping it up
Boarding them over
And mopping, mopping, mopping
But it’s useless
It’s just collapsing
And all I can do is watch
And it hurts
Because I wanted to save you
To save us
To save me
But you’ve been dead for such a long time
I wanted you to live
But you just wanted to die
You said to look for you in the garden
But I keep finding you in other people
In myself
You shouldn’t have asked me for help
So many times
I was just a little girl
And now all I know how to do is help
And I can’t save you
I can’t save them
I can’t save the farmhouse
But if I leave now
If I leave right now
I can still save myself