I used to think I understood friendship and how to be a good friend. I don’t think that anymore.
I know the kind of person I admire and the kind of person I want to be but I’m reminded often that I am not that person. Sometimes I really surprise myself with my own kindness and generosity. I’m like, “Holy sherbet, Batman, that actually felt natural and I even enjoyed it.” And sometimes I’m like, “How can I get through this without being a complete b-hole?” And I wonder how often people look at me and think, “Dang, what a complete b-hole!”
But, c’est la vie, such is life. Sometimes I am a complete b-hole! There’s no way I can please everyone all the time. Sometimes I am a kind and generous person.
I’ll never be all things to all people. (Sorry, Paul.) But I sincerely hope I can learn to be a good friend… most of the time.
Be content, my darlings, I am a work in progress, a beautiful artistic endeavor still being formed.
Every Day Bonnie 
Trust me, you haven’t seen b-hole until you’ve seen me in the mornings without coffee 😉
None of us is always perfect, none of us is always kind, and definitely, all of us are work in progress…
And frankly, I am instantly suspicious around anyone who’s too nice to me; it just comes out as a bit fake and unnatural and I just can’t relax
Being nice most of the time is all any of us can hope for and that’s more than enough. If people can’t accept you for who you are, Monday mornings without coffee and all, you don’t need them in your lives… feeling guilty for not being a robot is definitely not warranted
I simply love the way you said, “a beautiful artistic endeavour still being formed.”. It’s such a beautiful way to look at it. ❤
Looking forward to reading more from you, Bonnie! ❤
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Thanks Natalie! I very much agree with you. I’m working on learning that it’s ok to not be a robot. I need people like you in my life. 😁
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Haha, you’re welcome, Bonnie!
It takes a while but after some time, I was just too exhausted to keep caring about what other people thought… best decision I ever made
Keep writing from your heart! ❤
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