Quick poem I wrote on my way home from work today.

I am sooooooo in love with this little baby I just created. I birthed her from my song-womb just now. I had one of those “come to Buddha” moments last night at work and just realized some big shit about myself. And so, inspired, I wrote this. The recording is rough and the vocals need work but I love, love, love it. I can’t wait to hear what it will sound like when I can properly record her and stand up to sing, and, therefore, free up my poor diaphragm. As of right now, I play and sing sitting down which makes it harder to sing properly.

Anyway, love it or hate it, here she is, in all her glory.

I recently realized that I am a lot more fucked up than I thought I was. (Insert emotional support “lol”.) I have a lot more trauma to process and healing to do. It feels a bit like I am trapped on a lifeboat right now with Richard Parker, held captive by my own brain. But the good news is I am on the boat. I will survive this. (God, Bon, dramatic much? Lol.) And, honestly, when have I ever backed down from a challenge? So, even though my brain is floating through shark infested waters on a boat with a tiger as its companion, I’m feeling good. I have a plan and I have people who love me and support me. And if all else fails, I know memes will never let me drown. (Yeah, I’ll have to work on using humor as a coping mechanism. Lol.)