Ok. I will be the first to admit this song is really depressing. Lol. But I am only mildly depressed. I reconciled within myself a long time ago that I wasn’t on people’s radar. But that’s just the nature of everyone being their own main character. I just had a hard day and couldn’t think of anyone who would really be concerned about it with me. I tried. I reached out to a few people but then just gave up. It’s Tuesday. Lol. And my hard day wasn’t even really about me. But I felt shitty when I left work and just wanted someone to talk to and there was no one. Some of that is on me. I have become a lot more closed off than I used to be. Anyway, my little emo attitude is temporary. I bounce back harder than a dick on blue pills. Yes, feeling emo at the moment. But gimme a few and I’ll feel like the queen I am again.

Little goblins are running through my head
They want me dead they want me dead
To erase the very thought of me
So they can be free they can be free

They whisper nothing really matters
And no one cares at all
And no one wants to hear you sing another stupid song
And no one is listening to anything you say
Quiet little one while we steal your life away

Everything is rotten to the core
And I don’t want to cry anymore

Little goblins are running through my head
They’ve all be fed they’ve all been fed
Still they hunger for what I cannot give
I want to live I want to live

They whisper nothing really matters
And no one knows you’re here
And no one would even notice if you suddenly disappeared
And all the ones you have loved have moved on with their lives
And no one would even notice if you died

Everything is rotten to the core
And I don’t want to cry anymore

Maybe if I’d been a better whore
Said yes and please and thank you I’ll take more
And I can always give until I’m poor

I don’t want to cry anymore