I have been doing tarot now for a few years but I really only started doing readings consistently within the last few months. I get bored working overnights a lot and when there’s nothing to do I pull out a deck and start asking questions. I’m not sure to what degree I actually buy into tarot but there have been times when the cards I get are eerily accurate. Tonight I did a reading for myself that I don’t want to forget. And since I tend to write a lot of the important things in my life here this is where it is going.

Before I get into the reading, let’s talk about this afternoon. I went to a psychic this afternoon for a reiki session. When I got there she said she didn’t believe I needed reiki. She wanted to read my energy and give me a tarot reading and see what it was I really needed. I said, “Let’s go,” and we dove in.

I met her at a Pride festival I recently attended. She was doing tarot readings and I love getting readings from strangers because it’s always interesting to see what they pick up on. Even though I am a practitioner and lover of tarot, I’m also a skeptic and approach all spiritual hippy shit with a wary eye and a grain of salt. I believe there is something out there in the ether but I don’t know what it is.

She picked up on a lot in our first meeting. Some stuff I was surprised she was able to see. But what do I know? She could have just been reading my body language. I’ve been feeling pretty overwhelmed by life for a while now and she saw that right away. In addition to doing tarot, she does reiki which is a spiritual practice that involves energy cleansing. I had a reiki session when I was in New Orleans and it was profound. It really feels like a massage for your soul. I left feeling like a different person. So, obviously when I saw that she did reiki, I wanted to make an appointment to see her.

We never did reiki while I was there. She did a lot of spiritual shit and a few tarot readings and gave me some advice. She also heavily marketed a healing package she thinks I should do. It’s $475. If I suddenly get rich, maybe I will. LOL.

Her advice wasn’t astounding or earth shattering but I needed it. She basically said I need to take some time away from other people and focus on myself and my healing. She’s not wrong.

I have been lonely for a long, long time. And I hate that feeling probably more than anything. But I think it’s probably time I got comfortable with being lonely. She told me that I won’t always be alone. She said she saw a soulmate for me out there, someone I haven’t met yet. Isn’t that what they all say? I’ll make a note of that with the most amount of side eye. No way do I trust that my soulmate is out there looking for me. LOL.

I’ve thought about what she said and the advice she gave and decided I need to take some time alone to heal. I think it’s something I desperately need. Of course, I’ll still be around and see my friends on occasion. I’m not joining a monastery. But I think I’ll definitely spend less time on social media and more time on me.

Back to the tarot reading I don’t want to forget.

Since she told me to take some “me time”, I decided to ask tarot what the rest of the summer would look like and I drew some very interesting cards.

We started off strong with the tower. That’s about change. Three of cups is about friendship. The 7 of wands is about getting my spark back. Those were my first 3 draws. A good start. There’s gonna be some upheaval in my life this summer but I’m going to get my spark back and I like that. Next we got the hermit, death, and the 7 of swords. Oof. The hermit is just more confirmation that it’s time to isolate a bit. Death is endings and new beginnings. And the 7 of swords is secrets.

I got the moon, so I need to do some soul searching. But I also got the high priestess so I need to learn to trust my intuition. I got the sun and strength. That’s the good shit. But I also got the devil. So I have to deal with some internal shit too.

The fool means I’m starting a journey. The 2 of swords means I’m having some trouble accepting some truths. The 5 of cups and 5 of pentacles mean I’m looking back on stuff I’ve lost and I feel shitty about it. No doy. King of wands and King of swords mean I’m gonna get some mastery over my feelings and thoughts this summer. Damn, I hope so.

The ace of wands means I’m on a new emotional journey, ready to put some fire back in my soul. The 4 of pentacles bodes well for my finances this summer. Fingers crossed.

And, finally, my favorite card in all of tarot, the 2 of cups. This card is about love. Idk if it means I’ll find love this summer. I highly doubt that. But maybe it means I’ll finally learn to love myself. That’s really the best outcome, isn’t it?

All in all, I can say it was a pretty great reading. I have some stuff to work on but if I spend the time working on myself I should see some great results, like the sun, strength, and love. I’ll get my spark back and maybe learn to love myself.

Of course, all of this is stuff I could have come up with on my own. Or something a traditional therpist would tell me. But who needs therapy when I have a deck of cards with pretty pictures on them?

Anyway, I’m off to go be a hermit now and I try to find that spark. Take care of yourselves.